Saturday, June 14, 2008
you know what. it's quite discerning to see my name and blog link up on my church's website. =/ yeah yeah. i know these past two years.. i havent been attending church regularly. last year O lvls, this year with weekend classes or catching up on lost time with WJ.
to be honest i would tell you i had lost my faith. there was a point where i seriously didnt believe in God anymore. hence my apparent annoyance and anger of having my blog link up on the church website.
and that was when the Bintan trip changed everything. maybe coz i knew that God and church would be always be there, in the back of my mind and heart. i kinda took it for granted that i could come back in even after walking out.
on the first night in Bintan, i had this strange aching, a restless longing. at first it was just me missing my home, my bed, my boyfriend. but only on the last day did i realise i was missing God.
although right now i cant come to church coz of school and a lot of unexplainable issues. i really cant wait til my schedule clears up and put my demons behind me. that's when i'll come back to church.
oh yeah. WHOEVER DOES THE DESIGNS FOR THE CHURCH WEBSITE. DONT USE MY SURNAME. it's plain weird. laura/lauraa would be suffice.
to be honest i would tell you i had lost my faith. there was a point where i seriously didnt believe in God anymore. hence my apparent annoyance and anger of having my blog link up on the church website.
and that was when the Bintan trip changed everything. maybe coz i knew that God and church would be always be there, in the back of my mind and heart. i kinda took it for granted that i could come back in even after walking out.
on the first night in Bintan, i had this strange aching, a restless longing. at first it was just me missing my home, my bed, my boyfriend. but only on the last day did i realise i was missing God.
although right now i cant come to church coz of school and a lot of unexplainable issues. i really cant wait til my schedule clears up and put my demons behind me. that's when i'll come back to church.
oh yeah. WHOEVER DOES THE DESIGNS FOR THE CHURCH WEBSITE. DONT USE MY SURNAME. it's plain weird. laura/lauraa would be suffice.
what we could have been, 10:11 am.
